Over the years, I’ve found some of the most valuable friends I could find and they bring so much joy to my life during different phases or experience. But this one particular gem that I have started way back in uni during our foundation years and though it went through some hits and misses, we always knew that it’s a friendship that’s so precious because of the experiences that we went through together while we were young and innocent, up til we’ve reached an age where we don’t give a fuck about what others think.
It’s been almost 3 decades of friendship with this one. I wouldn’t wanna delve too deep about the things we did together but I would always appreciate that she was there to witness how I grew from being that one stupid gullible girl to finding out about myself, up to now when we seem to be doing better in life compared to how we struggled together in the early days of our career. I missed so much of our conversations together when we were finding out about ourselves, how to find the right man and how we could make our strict mothers happy and proud of us… the days when we had our first pay and we both got our Nokia 3210 together, and how we supported each other on our darkest moments.I never really felt alone back then even when I was a single mom as she made sure we’d always be in touch. I remember during the festive seasons when I’d go up north to be with my dad’s side, she’d come over to pick me up and have our own memories charted out, always trying to forget our blues as long as we were hanging out together.
It really warms my heart thinking about how she’s grown too, and how successful her life is now - she totally deserves the current lifestyle she’s got going after the many sacrifices we’ve been through back in those days. I totally cherish this friendship with her and how she stuck on with me even when she’s now far abroad and we could only spend brief moments together. I’ve tried holding on to several other friendships which I thought was good but if they don’t want to remain in your life, there’s nothing you could do to stop them from leaving. And I get that, I get that people move on with times - when there’s nothing much you have in common or even have the understanding to find time to reconnect, there’s no need to force upon them to stay. I am a true advocate of that - that you cannot force love, you cannot force friendships.
So, when she texted me to tell me she was vacationing in Penang with her family recently when she had a short break from her husband’s overseas stint, I didn’t hesitate to spend time with her. After all, I am alone here and have all the time for her, and at this age, we will never know when we’d be able to see each other again. And I love her, I am always open to people I love, I’d like to let them know that I do, and that I’m always here if they need me.
The short meet brought up a lot of deep emotions for me as this was where it started for both of us - Penang. I hope I’ve been as good of a friend to her as she has been to me.
Till we meet again, Yang… love you.
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